been a while...

well i have been a major slacker, and have not updated this blog in forever! I think the last time i updated i was in my 4th month. Well now we have moved all the way up to month 7!!! Seriously where has the time gone?...i feel like just yesterday i was sitting in my bathroom staring at a stick that had just sent my world spinning. ( I took the test 2 more times, just to make sure :) )

Well i am here in this wonderful 7 month, feeling my little boy moving and kicking, hiccuping (yeah crazy thing ever!) and feel at times dancing and him doing some form of yoga and kickboxing combined. He is a healthy little boy with a strong heart beat and seems to like to hang out in the 90th percentile. :) We had a health scare a month back, with our former doctor seeing two cysts on him, one on his brain and the other on his kidney. I about thought i was goign to lose my mind waiting for the appointment date to meet with a specialist at Lowell General who would be monitoring us. I couldn't help but think worse possible scenario. But about 2 days into th ewaiting process ( i had to wait about 2 weeks total) David and i started praying for Justice, praying with a heart of knowing we had no control and that God was bigger then all of this. Before i knew it i was so confident this baby boy of ours was going to be fine. Of course that was shaken a little when i did finally meet with the specialist and they first take me, a new mom, into a small private room with a genetic counselor. I was thinking oh my gosh, it's that bad they have to have me meet with this counselor. In the end just turns out it was a way to prepare me for eveything that they "could" find. Still i bit my lip the whole time to try and keep from crying. When we went into have the ultra sound, i was just mezmorized by this precious little body moving and showing off for us. And my heart jumped for joy when the ultra sound tech said "so i'm supposed to be looking for these cysts, but i don't see anything!" Right then i knew that my God was showing me and my family who was in charge of this little life.

So our little guy is just being wrapped up in favor :) We have some what gotten his little room together, painted the walls and put up shelves and organized his closet and some of the little cloths we have for him. With every little step of doing something to get ready it sinks in more that this little baby is coming soon. Not to mention the awesomely fun new developments with the pregnancy. The lack of sleep due to acid reflux, and just never seeming to find a really comfortable position. Pinched sciatic nerve, lower back pain, my ankles hurting when i walk to long, which i now realize is why pregnant women may "waddle" or walk funny, you are constantly trying not to put pressure on certain parts of your body. And i could if given the chance eat constantly...there is never a time i'm not hungry. And i actually will dream, vivid dreams about foods i'm craving. It's crazy!

Well this is just a small update, but i'm promising to update more. I think my next blog will have to be about the awesome double takes i get from people...the one where i just want to stop and say "yes, i'm pregnant!" geesh...but that is a rant for another day :)

hello New Endland...

Well we made the long ride up to New Hampshire this past week from Georgia. My amazing husband drove 20 hours...and thankfully the road adds many hours of countless laughs and entertainment, but also comes with leg cramps, back pain and crazy people.
It is so good to be back with family and friends, especially with the reality of this baby coming in a few months becoming more real with every small movement that is becoming more consistant. I'm winding down week 17 and entering into my 18th week. Baby is now 5 inches long and wieghing in at a few oz. But it is making it's presence known! I love that i can feel the movement...and David felt baby move for the first time on Friday morning. We were just laying in bed talking and i felt the familiar movemnt, i took his hand and put it on my lower stomach and told him to hold it there. A few seconds later there was a kick or bump...i looked over and his eyes were so wide. He had felt the movement...it was the coolest thing we have ever gotten to share together. And last night as we were laying watching t.v before bed baby started it's crazy little routine of bumps and kicks, and i had David hold his hand again on my stomach, and this time he felt a few of the movements. I just couldn't believe this was our baby, moving around stretching and kicking and flipping. It makes my heart smile so big when i see David smile when he feels the baby and how excited he gets about the baby growing and coming to be with us.
I have finally found a Dr. here and will be going next wednesday. Praying it won't be long after that when we find out what our little one is.
well this was a short update i will have more for you in the week to come!

already 4 months in...

Well this has been a crazy 4 months. Full of excitment, dr. appointments, hives, throwing up EVERY morning for the first 2 months...and every other day after that, passing out in a Texas Road house, not being able to eat my favorite foods, and craving ones i never thought i would. We saw our little one grow from a kidney bean size at 8.5 weeks to an actually looking baby, 4.5 inches long at 14 weeks. Heart rate is strong and beating at 163 per minute.

The best part about this is i wasn't even sure i would be able to have kids. i was terrified i wouldn't be able to have what i dreamed about since i was little. I wasn't given the most hope in the world with having Endometriosis and poly cystic ovarian disease. But all along God was so faithful in having others placed in my path to tell me i had nothing to worry about, He would full fill His promise to give me what my heart desired most. And on May 5 th of this year, i took two pregnancy tests just to make sure i was reading them right,(as if a digital "pregnant" wasn't enough for me to believe)

David and i are just so excited and over joyed that God would entrust another life to us. The full responsibility i don't think has kicked in for either of us quiet yet. But there are moments when it hits me, that i am going to be a momma. I will be responsible and responsible to God for his little life. My greatest desire and prayer at the moment is that this baby grows strong and it's heart grows strong, and that every day, every minute that it basks in the glory of God. As He knits this little one together. That our baby knows Gods voice, and will carry that into it's life.

I love that even before this little one joins us out here, we get to interact with baby in the womb. Silly as it seems David and I for some reason sing "Baby Beluga" to it almost every night and sometimes randomly in the day. I cherish it as silly as it is. I love that David always talks to the baby, being silly and loving on baby with loving words and kisses.

They say that now at 16 weeks i should be feeling baby starting to move. And i am so excited to say that i have! I had the very first distinct movement with out even thinking..."could that be a gas buble." We were driving in the car and the lower part of the seat belt was resting on my lower stomach kinda pushing it in. All of a sudden it was almost like a muscle spasm, but there was a light tripple hit. I knew instatnly this was baby making a move, quick little thing, but i couldn't believe i finally felt it! I wanted more, but nothing happened the rest of the night. Hoping i get another movement soon, i'll take them as random as they may be for awhile.

Well the boxes are staring at me that need to be packed. Our big move back up to NE happens on Monday so i have only till Saturday to get this place together. It will be so great to be up with family as we go through these next 5 months, and welcome our little one to the world. But this move is bitter sweet as we leave our now family here. But i am determined this baby will know it's family all over :)

We have 2-3 weeks till we know what the baby is....So excited. So keep tuned in for updates!