Well this has been a crazy 4 months. Full of excitment, dr. appointments, hives, throwing up EVERY morning for the first 2 months...and every other day after that, passing out in a Texas Road house, not being able to eat my favorite foods, and craving ones i never thought i would. We saw our little one grow from a kidney bean size at 8.5 weeks to an actually looking baby, 4.5 inches long at 14 weeks. Heart rate is strong and beating at 163 per minute.
The best part about this is i wasn't even sure i would be able to have kids. i was terrified i wouldn't be able to have what i dreamed about since i was little. I wasn't given the most hope in the world with having Endometriosis and poly cystic ovarian disease. But all along God was so faithful in having others placed in my path to tell me i had nothing to worry about, He would full fill His promise to give me what my heart desired most. And on May 5 th of this year, i took two pregnancy tests just to make sure i was reading them right,(as if a digital "pregnant" wasn't enough for me to believe)
David and i are just so excited and over joyed that God would entrust another life to us. The full responsibility i don't think has kicked in for either of us quiet yet. But there are moments when it hits me, that i am going to be a momma. I will be responsible and responsible to God for his little life. My greatest desire and prayer at the moment is that this baby grows strong and it's heart grows strong, and that every day, every minute that it basks in the glory of God. As He knits this little one together. That our baby knows Gods voice, and will carry that into it's life.
I love that even before this little one joins us out here, we get to interact with baby in the womb. Silly as it seems David and I for some reason sing "Baby Beluga" to it almost every night and sometimes randomly in the day. I cherish it as silly as it is. I love that David always talks to the baby, being silly and loving on baby with loving words and kisses.
They say that now at 16 weeks i should be feeling baby starting to move. And i am so excited to say that i have! I had the very first distinct movement with out even thinking..."could that be a gas buble." We were driving in the car and the lower part of the seat belt was resting on my lower stomach kinda pushing it in. All of a sudden it was almost like a muscle spasm, but there was a light tripple hit. I knew instatnly this was baby making a move, quick little thing, but i couldn't believe i finally felt it! I wanted more, but nothing happened the rest of the night. Hoping i get another movement soon, i'll take them as random as they may be for awhile.
Well the boxes are staring at me that need to be packed. Our big move back up to NE happens on Monday so i have only till Saturday to get this place together. It will be so great to be up with family as we go through these next 5 months, and welcome our little one to the world. But this move is bitter sweet as we leave our now family here. But i am determined this baby will know it's family all over :)
We have 2-3 weeks till we know what the baby is....So excited. So keep tuned in for updates!
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